This whole weekend was phenomenal! The presence of God is so thick up there! Driving up from Phoenix, I was getting butterflies in my stomach, I told my friend 'my life is about to change, I feel it.' When we hit that freeway exit on Friday, I got ZAPPED! lol The presence of God fell on me tough, even before getting to camp! My physical energy was diminished, I felt like I was being escorted into the labor room of destiny!
One of my 'ah ha' moments was during Saturday night worship service. The Lord was ministering to me about letting go of past failed relationships, completely severing soul ties and breaking the spirit of rejection that had me bound from moving forward with the real YES He had for me.
For 12 years I was bound by an emotional/mental soul tie with a man I met when I was 16 years old. We didn’t even have sex! I fell for him ‘at first sight’ as they say, our conversations of sweet nothings over the span of 12 years took me into deeper deception and false hope. Even through other relationships, dating other men throughout high school, college and my young adult life, I still thought of him, I still talked to him, no other man took me to a level of intimacy that he did, he had me. I was tired though, I wrestled with it a lot, asking if this was God’s will for my life, God said NO. Trying to submit, saying I’ll let it go, this is it, I can’t do this anymore…but subconsciously
I really believed this man was my husband and I believed he as coming…andstaying. The Lord kept telling me ‘NO’ and that He did have a YES for me, even highlighted this YES man, but I rejected it, I wanted HIM.
Saturday, during worship, I completely surrendered my will to God. Havilah’s message confirmed exactly what the Lord was speaking to me of letting go of the NO’s and saying YES to Gods YES. With her challenge of deleting the phone numbers in our contact list, I did it right away as an act of faith to seal the deal. In a time where I would have not dared to delete this mans number, Saturday there was a grace, it was easy, I finally made the great exchange – ‘NO’s for His YES.’ Shalom, Shalom flooded my whole being, I could barely move or speak. I rested in the peace of God, in God’s YES.
Rev. 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death. I say YES and I choose LIFE! Thank you for letting me share!